I have so much of words inside my mind
However
I have no mood to tell what am I thinking now

my heart just feel like hurting by thousands of knives
poking all of a sudden
without any protection
I am still smiling
But
I am having severe bleeding now




She doesn't understand me
why?
I am so disappointed


I know my result isn't that good
But
I have tried my best

Maybe I should try harder
since now

But... can you even give me some time
to prove
what have I said?

WHY can't you give me a chance?
or some time?

I know time is precious for you
I have my dream
i have my way

anyway,
sometimes
you just ignore what i think
as you think what you wan is the perfect one


I started to be like that...
I feel so stress
feel so mad
just like my head going to break into thousand pieces

I said I wan to transfer
you said CANNOT
MUST continue study in science stream
your cousin they all also can get good result in STPM
CAN survive in science stream
why not you??


oh Shit~
why you wan to compare them with me?
I am me
they are them
Two different individuals

perhaps...

perhaps you can't hear my voice
in the rain

I started to hate my home
which once
very warm to me...

everything seems to be stressful
as the moment i step into this house

I know you are so tired
working three different job
It is not my fault to make you lost the job
Is those G*****ment authorities
the introduce such rules
and causes you to work 3 part time job
as you have lost your main job

why you wan to show your black face to us?
day and night

oh ya...
and you just like to say
why am I so willing to help St John do things
but not you
just like to blame me on this
Is ok~

By the way
I sacrifices my time
to help you packs the red packets too
aren't this help?
i wonder...

while
even when i told you I got an extra job
you have no expression at all
no response at all
why ?

when i hurt myself
I am numb
because


friends around me
like to ask me
what's wrong with you?
when I am silent
when I am expressionless
but


I actually
just need a hug


people use to see I am tough
but I am weak in fact
I need supports


I MUST BE STRONGER

do not ever killed by the failures

I should learn to be strong
should cover my weakness

其实，当我们考试失败时，并不是我们的错...

因为一年只有365天...

针对一个学生对一年的理论

星期天~

一年的星期天有52天。

你也知道，星期天是让我们休息的。

所以，还剩下313天...

夏日假期~

这50天的假期是非常炎热的，

大家都会因为闷热而无心向学。

剩下263天...

每日的睡眠~

8个小时让我们睡觉，

去掉了50天。剩下141天...

娱乐~

每日抽出1个小时的时间让我们玩耍（为了身心健康）。

用掉了一年里的15天，

剩下126天...

饮食~

2个小时让我们吃零食，

喝饮料和每日三餐（咀嚼和吞食）。

30天又过去了，剩下96天...

谈吐~

1小时让我们和亲朋戚友说话（人也是一种爱交际的动物）。

又减掉了15天，还剩下81天...

考试~

一年最少也有35天。所以，还剩下46天...

特别节日

-情人节~大概也有40天，

剩下6天...

病痛（MC）~

你偶尔也会生病，对不对？

最少也MC三天。还剩下3天...

盛大典礼~

嗯...(example:结婚 / party)最少最少也有2天。

结果，还剩下1天...

最后的一天:生日~

你怎么可能在那天温习功课 / 补习！

剩下: 0 ！！

学生怎能顺利通过考试 ！

就算通过考试，

也不一定是一个活泼开朗的孩子了...

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给亲爱的F-R-I-E-N-D-S，

谢谢你曾经陪伴着我.

谢谢你做我的朋友.

谢谢你让我的回忆更美满.

希望我们以后还能继续联络哦.

记得永远都不要忘记我哦....

以前，

我们曾经一起吵架过..

我们曾经一起闹纠纷过...
我们曾经一起笑过...
我们曾经一起分享过..

我们曾经一起游戏过..

我们曾经一起嬉戏过..
我们曾经一起读书过..
我们曾经一起活动过..

我们曾经一起发神经过..

我们曾经一起用餐过..
我们曾经一起忙碌过...

我们曾经互相挺立对方过..

我们曾经互相包容过..

许许多多的以前，许许多多的回忆..

这些回忆

让我们的童年添加了色彩..

让我们都经过快乐，悲伤，忧虑，害怕...

期盼着要到的将来，

等待着要到的未来..

大家的友情，

永远都没有句号，

大家的友情，

永远都没有污点..

把每一份真诚的友谊，

都藏在心中..

最好的朋友，这个是真的..

无论发生什么事，
都会站在你这里;

当你需要我的时候，
我一定会出现,

给你援手，助你一臂..

有需要的时候尽管来找我..

不因为为什么,

只因为我们是朋友..

不希望你忘掉我..

不希望你憎恨我..

只希望你记住我~

一定要记住哦！

希望我们友谊万岁~

just have a very neutral mood today~


why ppl can have such an opinion?

Am I wrong?


What i judge and what i think...

sorry if giving you all too much pressure~
sorry if it is hard to have time during exam~

However,
same as i do~


I am a student
having my school lesson
having my own part time job
having my time to do with st john thing

I do not even have time to play~

But i have not spoken a word
"TIRED"

Maybe most of you will think~

you love st john so much
do how much also you won feel tired la~~~



this statement may be partially correct
why?


try to think at another angle
If ppl forces you to do something which u do not like
How will you feel?


If you make yourself, like evrything which ppl has had given to you
How will you feel?


Maybe it is so hard for us
to love and accept a thing
which we do not like
But in this society
do you think
when you are working with ppl one day
you still can ONLY do what you like
and ignore those you dislike?

I can say
NO

Life is not always pleasant to us
up and down
which you HAVE to accept


Most of the time
I need to thanks my friends, teachers
and especially juniors

Friends often say
aiya... can de la...
yiting worr~

teachers, especially Puan Chan
my MUET teacher
often praise me
ask others to learn from me
to have such a confidence

juniors, especially yan and chui yee
often say that
yiting Jie wor...
what she cant do~??

Maybe these words
can help us a lots


and to our friends around us~
always tell them
YES YOU CAN~!!!

so that they feel
they are the one
they have the feel of secure

So as to our frens around us
tell them everyday
HEY, you forget to smile today~

make your fren
to be a happier person


why not we try it today?

hey fren...
you forget to smile today

smile ^^











hey hey~~

Perhaps i am wrong...

That is how I born to be...

What can I do?

I will try to change...

but,

Is that still me??


yi ting...

How do u think she is??

there is so much
of freedoms behind me~~

Jump over to get it if u wan~

wanted to watch sorority row...
until now also haven watch...
haiz~
due to....


now is already 0030 am lu~

the usual me
should be sleeping le~

However
I am still onlining now

sometimes
my mo0d really come up and down
I cant let the day go just like that
should fill up my days with
fortunes and loves

I should study one chapter for maths today~
but i haven started anyth now...

why??
I do not know the answer

should I study later?
exam is just around the corner...

perhaps i should not be so emo
i cant let the emotion
manipulating my life

but I failed...


today should be happy...
I won the first prize for the volley ball match
even the boy team from other class
lose to us

things always come so unexpected...
and i have to heart to prepare


why?

where are the feelings to win?
I wonder...

I have participated 7 out of 13 games~
but every game if I am the one
who draw for the opponent's team
for sure
we will get a champion
as our enemy

why am i so unlucky?

even congkak...
I get a draw in the final game
and need to replay
at last,
I lost...

Haiz...

when will I get luckier?

moodless-ness attack
is so suffering

HELP ME~

don ONLY come and find me
whenever ONLY u need me